The first time I reached for a dream, I realized it wasn’t the norm to believe one could achieve anything they set out to do. Some parents tell it to their children but somewhere along the way, the thoughts are often replaced with self limiting beliefs.
I remember when people were surprised I would even think of leaving a stable career for something completely different. I was working at IBM in the marketing department, sending out newsletters with the latest software information as well as supporting sales representatives. Every day I would navigate my way through the labyrinth of grey dividers marking each section in the large grid pattern of cubicles. I would pull out my laptop, research the latest software information and send it out to awaiting sales representatives and marketing agents. It was a comfortable place and a dream for some, but my soul screamed for vibrancy and colour.
It was soon after that I had an opportunity for a new career in an animation studio with an opportunity for script coordination and a possibility of script writing. I was thrilled! I felt compelled to share this news with everyone, including my IBM newsletter recipients. They responded with “Congratulations on going for a dream!” or “Wow, you have so much courage to try and do something that you really want to do and leave such a stable job.” Some confided in me and said they would love to but they are too afraid of leaving the security of working for a large corporation. They wished me every ounce of luck in my new venture. The emails were straight from the heart and showed encouragement, support, excitement and vulnerability. I was so grateful for those emails because although I was reaching for what I wanted, I was scared. I opened my heart to a dream, and colleagues I had never met in person, opened their hearts to me.
I find myself here again…accomplishing a lifelong dream…completing my first novel. This is one of the biggest dreams I have had since I was a little girl. Writing has always been my greatest passion and biggest comfort. I used to write as a child creating stories or even just venting in my journal. When I “published” my Smurfs Parody on crisp white paper using our family typewriter at the time, I felt incredible. It didn’t go farther than my closet. But I did it.
Being a grown woman now, I realize that I have words I want to share with the world. I don`t want to keep them in my closet anymore. My novel is an expression of all the things that I want to say to the world and everything I`ve learned on my journey so far. It`s amazing because this dream is the one dream that has been transforming me the most, simply by reaching out for it. I`ve been changing more and more into the person I feel I am supposed to be. I am slowly becoming the truest version of myself by sharing what’s in my heart.
As soon as I said yes to my biggest dream of publishing a novel, things started happening and people starting coming into my life. I met my incredible editor with whom I share a wavelength and who shares the vision I have for my novel. I have virtually met a talented artist, from whom I not only have purchased the license for the art for my cover but who created a marketing book through social media which has helped me a great deal in stepping out of my comfort zone and starting this website. And then a friend of mine sent me something that has transformed my entire way of thinking about life in the best way possible. She sent me a pdf version of the book: The CEO, The Saint and The Surfer by Robin Sharma. I didn’t know I would need to read that book in order to pull me through everything I was about to go through.
Saying yes to my dream brought amazing people into my life, but it also meant having heart palpitations, restless nights with eyes wide open in bed, and bouts of crying that made my heart ache. It meant having two weeks of depression like symptoms. Saying yes to my dream meant I had to truly forgive myself for things in life that I felt hurt people I cared about. It meant really and truly loving myself, not just the pampering I did once in a while as a treat. I had to dig deep and really accept myself for everything I am. I had to believe I actually deserved to have a dream come true. And none of that was easy. They were some of the hardest moments of my life, and I have experienced some hard moments. Who knew that confronting myself would be the hardest challenge of them all. But I did. And it was only after I went through those difficult moments that I was able to focus on writing freely on a daily basis to accomplish my goal of publishing my book Tula.
And now, I am setting out to achieve my biggest dream. To write a novel and publish it. It feels incredible. Things are shifting in my life. I can feel it on a daily basis. I have more energy than I have ever had. I am considering endless possibilities with my career as an educator as well as a writer. I feel open to whatever life has to offer me. Writing a book has changed me simply because I reached out for a dream. I removed the inner critical voices and pushed aside the invisible limiting dome that was around me and spread my wings so I could soar to my best me.
What’s your dream? What have you always dreamed of doing? How will you shift your world today? No more excuses. Make a plan. Achieve your dream. It is completely possible. Forgive yourself. Love yourself. And let your work in this world come from your heart so that you can touch the lives of others in an amazing way. My first experience of reaching for what I truly wanted made me realize that settling for less than you want was the norm. Planning for and achieving your dreams needs to be the new norm. No limits. Endless possibilities. Be your best YOU!
“In a gentle way, you can shake the world.” Mahatma Gandhi
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